- I lost about 3 stones with WeightWatchers last year.
- I stopped going to WW and following the Plan in November.
- Since November I’ve gained back about 1 stone.
Over the past few months I’ve had a holiday, no central heating, a birthday and Christmas and all of these are good reasons for not dieting. But I’ve also deliberately binged, drunk caffeine (it doesn’t agree with me) and avoided exercise. Looking back, there are no good reasons for any of this. I’ve allegedly been on another diet, the ‘just eating healthily at home’ and the ‘s*d it, just pass the chocolate’ plans. I already know that none of these work for me so why I’m surprised every time I step on the scales is a bit of a mystery.
The problem is complex. Firstly, I’m blessed with what my Dr describes as ‘an addictive personality’ and food is a useful means of self-medication. Secondly, I really do enjoy my food. I enjoy planning and shopping and cooking and … well, yes, eating. And thirdly, I’m on medication which makes me feel constantly hungry and never full. Oh, I miss feeling full. I seem to have two settings – hungry and so stuffed I want to be sick.
Doing WW last year was hard. But it works – it imposes an external brake on the amount I eat and that’s something I can’t do for myself right now. If I could I wouldn’t have gained back some of the weight I worked so hard to lose.
It’s time to go back and the meeting I used to go to is tomorrow night. So tomorrow I’ll start tracking, wear my pedometer and go to my meeting. I’ll read the literature and buy a magazine. I’ll plan a menu to take me into next week and walk instead of taking the car.
I know what weighing 15st is like because I’ve been there. I didn’t like it and I’m not going back.